Until

Until

How long should we hold onto a promise...a hope...a dream...in search of a miracle? The answer to this is Until...

According to the Merriam-Webster dictionary the meaning of the word until indicates the time when something will happen or come true. When we have prayed and prayed for an answer we should never quit. We should continually pray for the focus of our need until. Until when you may ask, and so I say, Until you either die praying or you see the miracle come true. Faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen! I do believe that a lot of times people give up way to soon and some give up a moment, literally seconds before their miracle is about to occur.

The way I see it, It doesn't matter if I see my prayers come true or not. I know that this may seem crazy but if I never see anything else come true, I have already seen enough to know that my prayers are not in vain. Would I love to see each one answered? Why yes I would. But until...I will just keep on praying. Keep believing, Keep waiting for that miracle and keep holding on to the promise. I will keep on Until... because Webster says Until is the time when something happens or comes true.

Luke 24:49   

And, behold, I send the promise of my Father upon you: but tarry ye in the city of Jerusalem, until ye be endued with power from on high.

A Soldiers Heart

A Soldiers Heart

At 3:30 a.m. I got the call. It woke me up out of a dead sleep. At first my thoughts were fuzzy and I did not quite comprehend what was going on. My husband lay asleep beside me and I could hear the steady rhythmic sound of his breath as he slept. Awake now I gathered my thoughts. At first I thought I would just go back to sleep all the while knowing that was not going to happen. Yes I could have shrugged it off and drifted back into the welcome warmness and comfort of that place before dawn when you sleep the best but I knew I was being called to do something else. I quietly slipped out of bed. I headed for the living room to the corner of the sofa where I pray these days. I would love to kneel but must sit due to aching knees from years of work and misuse. I sat quietly in the dark with only the warm glow from an antique lamp and the aquarium. I thought about the time that God spoke to Samuel as a child and how at first he did not recognize the voice. The voice that would soon seem all to familiar. It is that voice that I hear now... No not audible but just as clear. I knew that I was being called to pray, for what I did not know. I just wait and listen and quietly utter words of thankfulness and praise and slowly, deliberately I am drawn into a place of deep things where battles are fought and won. I pray for souls and soon feel the deep groaning of the spirit. The groaning of travail. The same kind of groaning felt when babies are being born as the pain absorbs the whole body and leaves one to exhausted to move. I cherish this place because I realize that even though it is painful it is important to the kingdom of God. After a while my agony turns to tears and I feel that spirit wash over me cleansing me and I know that I have touched the very throne of God. I have heard it said that prayers never go away but instead roll over and over and are forever continual throughout eternity, that they ever remain before God reminding him of our every need, of souls who are important to us. I know that every soul is important even the ones we may not have a name for. That is why it is important to care...To cry out for the ones who we don't even know. To pray for the beggar on the street and the drug addict who is lost in the hopelessness of addiction. To pray for the children with no one to love them and the grandmother who has been left alone. You see...We don't have to know them but we know they exist and need us to stand in the gap for them that they might be saved. That is why we are here. To win them. To fight battles for them that they will never even know about until one day in heaven when all will be revealed. So God use me. Wake me up at three a.m.  Help me to never love sleep so much that I don't listen and shun the very thing that I have been called to do. Help me to fight this battle as the war rages on. Give us I pray souls by the thousands and hundreds of thousands. Let my vision be greater than the simple things that I see. Give me I pray a soldiers heart. 

1 Samuel 3:8

"and Eli perceived that the Lord had called the child."

Sober Up

Sober Up

 When we live for Jesus and give our life to him we will certainly have ups and downs...We are human aren't we. Life is both a mixture of beautiful and sad. Sometimes we have to sober up and I don't mean from strong drink. Sometimes we become intoxicated with life and things. Things that can absorb the best part of us if we are not careful. Sometimes we have to snap out of it. To snap to attention and realize what are the most important things in our life. The most important things are not things after all but people. People who God has allowed to cross our paths. People who we have been given the opportunity to influence and witness to. People who have been entrusted to us by someone greater than we are. What if that person we meet was sent to us for hope. What if we could make a difference in their life. What if that one word we say could win them for eternity. What if we let that brief encounter slip through our hands and laugh and joke and say nothing? We have been given a great job, a sober responsibility. Yes we laugh and joke and have fun. We love being funny and having people laugh and want them to like being around us but even during laughter we should have that little voice in the back of our minds whispering win them...Pray for them...Reach them...  And if they walk away the same we should feel sadness.  We are after all the people of God and our whole mission here is to make a difference. To save our dying world.  To reach the lost. To spread the gospel. So I say to myself , self....Sober Up!!!! .I will not be content until I have won a thousand souls...no ten thousand...no a million...no a ..............

1 Thessalonians 5:6

"Therefore let us not sleep, as do others; but let us watch and be sober."

As In The Days of Noah

As In The Days of Noah

I was thinking again today about our world, my world. I feel like I am so blessed just to be alive. I wonder what does Jesus really think as he looks down on us. As he sees the world filled with people who he gave his life for, As he took his last breath knowing that they are the ones who crucified him and do so still to this day.  The world is so evil and filled with people who have no thought for tomorrow. People who are so self centered about what feels good and the fun they can have. The world in which we live, a world filled with homosexuality,  liers, murders even in the form of abortion which is today considered the norm. What I say today is As In The Days of Noah!!! 

Come Lord Jesus.

Leaving

Leaving

There is an old song that says lately all I've got is leaving on my mind. Well! How can you have anything else on your mind with all the craziness going on in the world. The violence and hatred, the feeling and attitude that anything goes and the spirit of disdain towards any and everyone who stand up for what is right. I just sit back and think of how foul and unjust are the leaders of this country who no longer believe in or want anyone else to believe in the old adage In God We Trust. I am thinking we are more like in the days of Daniel when the times called for people to pray in secret. I wonder who will have the courage when they are told to bow to stand tall and say I will not bow! I will love the Lord my God with all of my heart and all of my soul and will give my life if that is what is ask of me. I pray with sober cries for God to keep us in this end time and help us to stand tall against those who would suppress any open voice or appearance of Godliness. Help us to stay on course and waver not at any wind that blows. I saw a video on youtube of the sound of a horn that comes from nowhere and has been heard in many countries and I think Lord please let me be ready. Help my lamp to be full of oil and my ears to be keen listening for the sound that will rip through the eastern sky. Help me to be standing at attention as you appear and let me hear Enter in tho good and faithful servant. Watching and leaving that really is what is on my mind.

What I Know

What I Know

I know that I am not as good as I need to be. I know that oft times I am a failure. If I am truly honest with myself sometimes it is not so pretty. This post is about my relationship with God. I am sometimes a failure. Many times if I will just admit it. I walk through this life doing the things that are fun. Playing games.....Oh yes! I don't like to think of it like that but that is exactly what I do while putting God on hold. I know that my goal and lives ambition should be winning souls. Witnessing and inviting, No not just that but I should be literally compelling others to come. I should be introducing someone else to the love of Jesus. Jesus died for me and then reached way down to the miserable depths of despair and wrapped me in his arms and saved me. He filled me with the Holy 

Ghost with the evidence of speaking with other tongues as is illustrated in Acts 2:38. 

I have missed to many church services lately. How dare I. No one has reprimanded me or even ask me why but when I look in the mirror and see the reflection of my soul I ask myself again "What am I doing?"  Do I really believe it is the end time or not?. Well I do! It is so direct and blatant in the Bible. We are warned and things are happening at a breakneck pace. Now back to the title of this post "What I Know"   What I know is that I better get off of my duff and do something. I am called of God to do a work and to help change my world, What I know is that there are no excuses. When I stand before Jesus who was beaten and hung on a cross and he looks at me with those loving deep serious eyes and ask "What did you do" How many souls did you win"  "Why not"  I can't just stand there and say that I was too busy. I was painting, or shopping, or watching TV or many other things. What I know is that now is the time for me to wake up and do what I know to do. I have caught myself kinda wanting to blame someone else but when I look within and really see the truth it is me who is not doing what I should. Now today I want to turn around and put God first. I want to witness and pray and fast and win souls. Today I want to share with someone else "What I Know...."

It Seems So Silly

  
      It seems so silly when I read my last post. So silly when I realize that in my desperation I forget to let God be the strong arm that he is. Should I liken myself to the time when Moses smote the rock instead of speaking to it. Or maybe it is like Elisha when he hid himself from Jezebel and thought that there were no other people in the land who loved God. Where is he I say and then I answer that He was here all the time. Yep! He was standing right there where I needed him to be.
     Last Wednesday I got a call from the hospital where I used to work. You won't believe that they offered me a job and want me to start in two weeks. I have pondered it a lot. Remember I even prayed that they would call but now that they have I think I will just stay right where I am at. Now I am comfortable where I am. At the very job which God gave me almost a year ago. Yes...That same job I wanted to leave shortly after I started there.
     It seems funny sometimes when we realize that we are right where we should be and if we will just wait on God he will always come through. He can make the uncomfortable, comfortable. He really does prepare a table before us in the presence of our enemies. I have so much to tell but will leave it here for now but I am going to try and write soon. very very soon.
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 Deuteronomy 6: 4-5  Hear Oh Israel The Lord our God is one Lord. Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart and with all thy soul and with all thy might.