Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Learning To Trust

Learning To Trust
Some people may think that trust just happens. Well to some people it may just happen but for me it comes with learning. Much learning. Every time I think of trusting at the point when I think I am trusting I can  feel doubt creep in. I am continuing to have a hard time at work. I get called off a lot. Almost every time lately that I am scheduled to work I get a call to stay home. The census is down and all of us have been getting called off. So I pray... Then I try taking it into my own hands and apply for a job at the hospital where I used to work and the manager offered me the job but three weeks later and HR still hasn't called me. Well maybe I am rushing God. My bills are due and none have been late yet but soon they will be if things don't change. Oh God! forgive me... When I have given it to you I am now trying to take it back and handle things on my own. Well today and for the last week I have had this feeling like God is going to do something great for me. I know that if his word is true (and it is) then all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord. I do love the Lord so why am I fretting? I will let you know how this works out...I have purposed in my heart to trust so next time I start to whine about my status I am going to purposely pray for someone else. There devil you have it. I am learning to trust. God has never, never, never let me down...

2 Kings Chapter 4

Friday, October 19, 2012

The Lord Is My Shepherd

The Lord is my Shepherd
To be totally honest lately I have been a little stressed about work. I have been getting called off a lot. Last night they called me to stay home. I told them that I really need to work. They told me to come. I got to work and within 5 minutes of being clocked in they told me to go home. I left the hospital and went to church and after being there for about 10 minutes my phone rang and they called me back to work. It feels like turmoil. I was so upset so with tears in my eyes I drove back to work. When I drove up I was just sitting in my car praying. I remember saying But God do you even hear me? I cried and explained how I know that millions of people have more important needs that mine. I just started saying The Lord is my Shepherd I shall not want and then while quoting this to myself I realized that I had forgot part of it so crying now I am saying what I know. I said Lord! I don't even remember this. I went in and took a patient. My night was ok and around 2 am a little lady who was very confused and talking out of her head all night all of a sudden said "God is here" at which time she started saying The Lord is my Shepherd". I stopped dead in my tracks as I realized that yes God was speaking to me. Then when she got to the part I had forgot she stopped and started over.
A coincidence? I don't think so.    The Lord is my Shepherd.


Psalms Chapter 23

1(A Psalm of David.) The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

He Cares

He Cares
I haven't posted in a while I have been working and I have been sick but today...
I am feeling some better. So many good things have been happening in my life. Things that
reiterate to me that He Cares. My daughter Julie called to tell me that the Marines has offered
her early retirement and that she is moving to my city. Wow! caught by surprise that is what it was. From out of nowhere an answer to my prayers in a way I would have never imagined. To have her here...to be able to be part of my grandchildrens lives. To be able in some way to teach them what it means to live for Jesus... I am just blown away as I thank God from the bottom of my heart. Do I think that this is a gift from him? Of course I do again I say He Cares.   My heart is full again today I thank him for hearing my humble prayers for taking care of my needs.

Luke 12:27 |
Consider the lilies how they grow: they toil not, they spin not; and yet I say unto you, that Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.