Learning To Trust
Some people may think that trust just happens. Well to some people it may just happen but for me it comes with learning. Much learning. Every time I think of trusting at the point when I think I am trusting I can feel doubt creep in. I am continuing to have a hard time at work. I get called off a lot. Almost every time lately that I am scheduled to work I get a call to stay home. The census is down and all of us have been getting called off. So I pray... Then I try taking it into my own hands and apply for a job at the hospital where I used to work and the manager offered me the job but three weeks later and HR still hasn't called me. Well maybe I am rushing God. My bills are due and none have been late yet but soon they will be if things don't change. Oh God! forgive me... When I have given it to you I am now trying to take it back and handle things on my own. Well today and for the last week I have had this feeling like God is going to do something great for me. I know that if his word is true (and it is) then all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord. I do love the Lord so why am I fretting? I will let you know how this works out...I have purposed in my heart to trust so next time I start to whine about my status I am going to purposely pray for someone else. There devil you have it. I am learning to trust. God has never, never, never let me down...
2 Kings Chapter 4
1Now there cried a certain woman of the wives of the sons of the prophets unto Elisha, saying, Thy servant my husband is dead; and thou knowest that thy servant did fear the LORD: and the creditor is come to take unto him my two sons to be bondmen.
2And Elisha said unto her, What shall I do for thee? tell me, what hast thou in the house? And she said, Thine handmaid hath not any thing in the house, save a pot of oil.
3Then he said, Go, borrow thee vessels abroad of all thy neighbours, even empty vessels; borrow not a few.
4And when thou art come in, thou shalt shut the door upon thee and upon thy sons, and shalt pour out into all those vessels, and thou shalt set aside that which is full.
5So she went from him, and shut the door upon her and upon her sons, who brought the vessels to her; and she poured out.
6And it came to pass, when the vessels were full, that she said unto her son, Bring me yet a vessel. And he said unto her, There is not a vessel more. And the oil stayed.
7Then she came and told the man of God. And he said, Go, sell the oil, and pay thy debt, and live thou and thy children of the rest.