What I Know

What I Know

I know that I am not as good as I need to be. I know that oft times I am a failure. If I am truly honest with myself sometimes it is not so pretty. This post is about my relationship with God. I am sometimes a failure. Many times if I will just admit it. I walk through this life doing the things that are fun. Playing games.....Oh yes! I don't like to think of it like that but that is exactly what I do while putting God on hold. I know that my goal and lives ambition should be winning souls. Witnessing and inviting, No not just that but I should be literally compelling others to come. I should be introducing someone else to the love of Jesus. Jesus died for me and then reached way down to the miserable depths of despair and wrapped me in his arms and saved me. He filled me with the Holy 

Ghost with the evidence of speaking with other tongues as is illustrated in Acts 2:38. 

I have missed to many church services lately. How dare I. No one has reprimanded me or even ask me why but when I look in the mirror and see the reflection of my soul I ask myself again "What am I doing?"  Do I really believe it is the end time or not?. Well I do! It is so direct and blatant in the Bible. We are warned and things are happening at a breakneck pace. Now back to the title of this post "What I Know"   What I know is that I better get off of my duff and do something. I am called of God to do a work and to help change my world, What I know is that there are no excuses. When I stand before Jesus who was beaten and hung on a cross and he looks at me with those loving deep serious eyes and ask "What did you do" How many souls did you win"  "Why not"  I can't just stand there and say that I was too busy. I was painting, or shopping, or watching TV or many other things. What I know is that now is the time for me to wake up and do what I know to do. I have caught myself kinda wanting to blame someone else but when I look within and really see the truth it is me who is not doing what I should. Now today I want to turn around and put God first. I want to witness and pray and fast and win souls. Today I want to share with someone else "What I Know...."

It Seems So Silly

  
      It seems so silly when I read my last post. So silly when I realize that in my desperation I forget to let God be the strong arm that he is. Should I liken myself to the time when Moses smote the rock instead of speaking to it. Or maybe it is like Elisha when he hid himself from Jezebel and thought that there were no other people in the land who loved God. Where is he I say and then I answer that He was here all the time. Yep! He was standing right there where I needed him to be.
     Last Wednesday I got a call from the hospital where I used to work. You won't believe that they offered me a job and want me to start in two weeks. I have pondered it a lot. Remember I even prayed that they would call but now that they have I think I will just stay right where I am at. Now I am comfortable where I am. At the very job which God gave me almost a year ago. Yes...That same job I wanted to leave shortly after I started there.
     It seems funny sometimes when we realize that we are right where we should be and if we will just wait on God he will always come through. He can make the uncomfortable, comfortable. He really does prepare a table before us in the presence of our enemies. I have so much to tell but will leave it here for now but I am going to try and write soon. very very soon.
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 Deuteronomy 6: 4-5  Hear Oh Israel The Lord our God is one Lord. Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart and with all thy soul and with all thy might.
    

Learning To Trust

Learning To Trust

Some people may think that trust just happens. Well to some people it may just happen but for me it comes with learning. Much learning. Every time I think of trusting at the point when I think I am trusting I can  feel doubt creep in. I am continuing to have a hard time at work. I get called off a lot. Almost every time lately that I am scheduled to work I get a call to stay home. The census is down and all of us have been getting called off. So I pray... Then I try taking it into my own hands and apply for a job at the hospital where I used to work and the manager offered me the job but three weeks later and HR still hasn't called me. Well maybe I am rushing God. My bills are due and none have been late yet but soon they will be if things don't change. Oh God! forgive me... When I have given it to you I am now trying to take it back and handle things on my own. Well today and for the last week I have had this feeling like God is going to do something great for me. I know that if his word is true (and it is) then all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord. I do love the Lord so why am I fretting? I will let you know how this works out...I have purposed in my heart to trust so next time I start to whine about my status I am going to purposely pray for someone else. There devil you have it. I am learning to trust. God has never, never, never let me down...

2 Kings Chapter 4

¹Now there cried a certain woman of the wives of the sons of the prophets unto Elisha, saying, Thy servant my husband is dead; and thou knowest that thy servant did fear the LORD: and the creditor is come to take unto him my two sons to be bondmen.

²And Elisha said unto her, What shall I do for thee? tell me, what hast thou in the house? And she said, Thine handmaid hath not any thing in the house, save a pot of oil.

³Then he said, Go, borrow thee vessels abroad of all thy neighbours, even empty vessels; borrow not a few.

⁴And when thou art come in, thou shalt shut the door upon thee and upon thy sons, and shalt pour out into all those vessels, and thou shalt set aside that which is full.

⁵So she went from him, and shut the door upon her and upon her sons, who brought the vessels to her; and she poured out.

⁶And it came to pass, when the vessels were full, that she said unto her son, Bring me yet a vessel. And he said unto her, There is not a vessel more. And the oil stayed.

⁷Then she came and told the man of God. And he said, Go, sell the oil, and pay thy debt, and live thou and thy children of the rest.

The Lord Is My Shepherd

The Lord is my Shepherd

To be totally honest lately I have been a little stressed about work. I have been getting called off a lot. Last night they called me to stay home. I told them that I really need to work. They told me to come. I got to work and within 5 minutes of being clocked in they told me to go home. I left the hospital and went to church and after being there for about 10 minutes my phone rang and they called me back to work. It feels like turmoil. I was so upset so with tears in my eyes I drove back to work. When I drove up I was just sitting in my car praying. I remember saying But God do you even hear me? I cried and explained how I know that millions of people have more important needs that mine. I just started saying The Lord is my Shepherd I shall not want and then while quoting this to myself I realized that I had forgot part of it so crying now I am saying what I know. I said Lord! I don't even remember this. I went in and took a patient. My night was ok and around 2 am a little lady who was very confused and talking out of her head all night all of a sudden said "God is here" at which time she started saying The Lord is my Shepherd". I stopped dead in my tracks as I realized that yes God was speaking to me. Then when she got to the part I had forgot she stopped and started over.

A coincidence? I don't think so.    The Lord is my Shepherd.

Psalms Chapter 23

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¹(A Psalm of David.) The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

²He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

³He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

⁴Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

⁵Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

⁶Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

He Cares

He Cares

I haven't posted in a while I have been working and I have been sick but today...

I am feeling some better. So many good things have been happening in my life. Things that

reiterate to me that He Cares. My daughter Julie called to tell me that the Marines has offered

her early retirement and that she is moving to my city. Wow! caught by surprise that is what it was. From out of nowhere an answer to my prayers in a way I would have never imagined. To have her here...to be able to be part of my grandchildrens lives. To be able in some way to teach them what it means to live for Jesus... I am just blown away as I thank God from the bottom of my heart. Do I think that this is a gift from him? Of course I do again I say He Cares.   My heart is full again today I thank him for hearing my humble prayers for taking care of my needs.

Luke 12:27 |

Consider the lilies how they grow: they toil not, they spin not; and yet I say unto you, that Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

Just Thinking

 Just Thinking

I am just sitting here thinking about all of the good things in my life. The more I think about it the more I realize how blessed I really am. I have a good job. The people there are nice enough. My husband loves me in spite of me getting up on the wrong side of the bed sometimes. My dog loves me even tho I spank him and send him to the yard when he has an accident in the floor. Accident I say....I really know it was on purpose. Sitting here once again and wondering what more can I do to win souls. How can I reach someone. I ask Benny if he would go door to door with me to invite people to church. NO! is kinda the response I got not quite so harsh though. I have a burden and don't know what to do with it I just know that I need to do something. I have to do something. The other day I met a man with lung cancer which has went to his brain. He is in his right mind and while I was talking to him he ask me to pray for him. I said how about now he nodded his head yes and said now. I laid my hand on the site in his right lung and I prayed. I did not necessarily pray for a healing but more I prayed that he would not be in pain anymore. I prayed in the name of Jesus that the root of that cancer would shrivel up and die. At the sound of that name the man began to use his hands, something he had not been able to do in weeks. He could all of a sudden feed himself. He cried, I cried. I don't know the full outcome and I may never meet him again but I do know that on that day God delivered a miracle because someone believed in that name...The name of Jesus.  Just sitting here thinking what could we do if we really believe? If we used that name to the extent that it was meant to be used. I want to use it more. To call on it for all things. If I stump my toe...In the name of Jesus...If I need financial help...In the name of Jesus....If my head hurts...In the name of Jesus...If I meet someone on the street who don't know Jesus...In the name of Jesus....What can we do through the power of that name....Just thinking

John 14:14

   If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it.

Just Fishing

Just Fishing

Today we went fishing. We started at about 2pm and fished for several hours. We had the perfect bait. We fished with worms and then resorted to fly fishing with dry flies and popping bugs. The

weather was just right. The temperature was cool the wind was still. The sun was at our backs and I couldn't have ask for a better day but apparently the fish did not think so. We did not bring home any fish. What I learned was that even tho all things seem just right sometimes you just simply do not catch fish. We put forth the right effort. We planned each strategy. We went on the best day. Our homework done and yet no fish. In comparison to be fishers of men we study, we live the life before them, we pray,we fast. We hunger to see souls saved. After all is done and we see that everything is in order sometimes we just leave empty handed without any being won. But there is always tomorrow. What I learned through all of this is Just keep on fishing. Tomorrow will be better and when all is said and done we will land a great catch. We started to leave and an older gentleman was sitting on the bumper of his truck just fishing. Like us he caught nothing. He was mostly enjoying his day when I spoke. I ask him if he goes to church to which he said yes I visit here and there. Smiling inside I said well how about visiting our church. "I sure will" he said. We pulled up the hill to tie down the boat and the man drove up and waved out the window as he drove off. See you next month he said. I will see you at church... Who knew that on this ordinary day of fishing I would end up fishing for men...Think I will just cast out there one more time. You just never know when the day will turn from catching nothing to catching something worth while.

Matthew 4:19

And he saith unto them, Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.